I cant have it both ways. I dont even know if I can tolerate the having to work and going to school at the same time. I had a horrible summer this year. I barely did any “me” time and here I am complaining about it. I had a fulltime job, part time job and took an online accounting course this past summer. My body and mind was all blown out. As soon as my full time job ended, I went right through school. So now all I have is this part time job thats also going to end soon and full time school. I know that I should start looking for another part time job soon since I need to get the money flowing in my pocket but I haven’t really looked. Sure I’ve applied to various work study jobs in my university which was giving out 2 resumes but that was it. Nothing really. Also I’m not even sure if I want an IT job. I might just want to work for Chapters or Coles where not much IT is in the job. Simply said, I have no motivation to search for jobs. I guess I’ll have the motivation as soon as the contract ends in my part-time job. Then I’ll go into panic mode and start looking like there’s no tomorrow. Also ever since school started, I’ve become relatively lazy and I’ve lost my ability to program… I’ve been doing PHP in the summer that that’s all I could code. No C. No Java. Now that I have to relearn C, I am so screwed since one of my courses requires to code in the language. I hate C with a passion and I dont get why its creators never made it user-friendly…. Ugh.. Enough ranting. See ya later.

Ah guess who just turned 24.. Doesnt really surprise me that I woke up too early today and had a horrible day on my bday. I get all depressed whenever 9/10 comes. Dont ask me why because I honestly do not know. I guess it’s a whole chemical imbalance thing? I dont get depressed often so I’m not sure why today it had to happen. I guess I was all fatigued and just not in the mood for school. I honestly just want to get out of here and just work. I dont even feel like searching for a job since my current job ends in 3 weeks. I guess I’ll have all the motivation back soon. I hope anyway.